February 20, 2023

There's one person that can really, truly get in my head. I told him today that he manipulates me in a way that nobody else can. I even gave specific examples, but he either denied it or countered it by saying that I've done the same thing to him. I also told him that if I thought the feeling of wanting a friendship/trust again was reciprocated, I would put more effort in. But that I don't because I don't feel like he gives a shit either way, whereas I miss us actually being friends. He said that he's "tried 47 times" but that I've "just never noticed". Honestly, what the fuck does that mean?